I'd Rather Be A Doorkeeper In The House of The Lord

I have a beautiful young wife. I have a baby comming. I have a low paying job. I have a lot of stress that i'm dealing with. Can I support my family? Do i have enough to provide? I am in a right postition to go chasing riches and to obsess over finances. I would be the first to go and chase after the wind...if I didn't realize how rich i am. I am the richest man in the world. I have Jesus Christ who has died for my sins. He died for me. The most vile, dirty and discusting man who has ever lived. Me, who creation was appaled to have me walk upon it, Jesus Christ died for me! He rose from the dead and conqured death so that I will never have to face death, and will dwell with Christ in perfect communion with the saints, Jesus Christ, the Holy Sprit, and God the father. I have Christ. I have everything! Here is Thomas Sherman giving some thoughts on such things.

If this is happiness--then give me misery!
(Thomas Sherman, "Divine Breathings; Or, a Pious Soul Thirsting after Christ")

"There was a rich man who was dressed in purple and fine linen, and lived in luxury every day." Luke 16:19

How apt are many at the sight of a rich worldling--to envy him for what he has. But, for my part, I rather pity him for what he lacks!

He has a talent--but it lacks improvement;
he has a lamp--but it lacks oil;
he has a soul--but it lacks grace;
he has the creature--but he lacks the Creator;
he has a mansion--but he lacks heaven.

In his life, he floats upon a torrent of vanity--which rolls along into an ocean of vexation! And after death, it will be said of him, "Take this unprofitable servant, bind him hand and foot, and cast him into outer darkness! Consign his soul to the eternal lake of fire and brimstone!"

Where now is the object of your envy? It is not his gold that can then rescue him, nor his mansion that can then satisfy him, nor his friends that can then comfort him. Therefore, if he is worth the envying--then who can be worth the pitying? If this is happiness--then give me misery!Lord, rather make me poor with a holy heart--than rich with an evil heart of unbelief!

"Have pity on me and send Lazarus to dip the tip of his finger in water and cool my tongue--because I am in agony in this fire!" Luke 16:24

"Then they will go away to eternal punishment--but the righteous to eternal life!" Matthew 25:46